a walking corpse.

assalamualaikum,
hi peeps,nina's back!:)
smile peeps,aren't you happy to see me?
no?why?
because my panda eyes had became much much bigger than before?
hmm.just ignore it!
my panda eyes had became thissss big because i'm lacking of sleep.
nowadays,i only managed to sleep only for 4 hours per day.
coz i've a pile of homeworks waiting for me.
and other agendas as well.
yeah,i was a lil bit distressed coz i haven't sit for my muet speaking paper,thats why i felt a bit off from my usual self.
yes,i'm cheerful and happy go lucky as usual but i couldnt stop imagining how am i going to sit calmly in front of the examiners,coz i had this nervous breakdown-which means i can't control my nervousness.
it usually will start 5-4 days prior to the exam.
during the time period,i can't think well and i tend to be a blurry person.
and i'll also skip the meals.
i don't know why but i can't control the feeling.
nuha,one of my closest friend have noticed me for being my unusual self,when we were in computer science's lab this morning,
i'm really amazed that she manages to know when i'm being distressed.
she said that i did talk a lot but my words were less than the usual day.
gosh,i wonder why?
maybe because i keep thinking about the upcoming final examination,
and my muet speaking test,
and also i fought with someone who's realllly precious to me.
his presence himself will make me feel warmer,and happier inside out.
but why the hell did i fought with him?
okay that's totally not my fault but i'm not going to apologize.
maybe i'll wait till his birthday?LOL.i hope i can refrain myself from texting him.
yeah,and i'm not going to give up on him.

(supposedly i'm going to share with you about how hectic my life were recently,but whenever i started to think bout him,i cant just stop talking bout him.maybe my feeling for him was just too pure and sincere,LOL)
 by the way thanks nuha for always supporting me.
let's get through the thick and thin of matriculation life together!:)

trying not to love you.

You call to me, and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more?
And our time apart, like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more?


But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
And trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more

And this kind of pain, only time takes away
That's why it's harder to let you go (That's why it's harder to let you go)
And nothing I can do, without thinking of you
That's why it's harder to let you go (That's why it's harder to let you go)


But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more


So I sit here divided, just talking to myself
Was it something that I did?
Was there somebody else?
When a voice from behind me, that was fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me, whispered right in my ear
Said, I've been dying to tell you

That trying not to love you, only went so far
Trying not to need you, was tearing me apart
Now I see the silver lining, from what we're fighting for
We just keep on trying, we could be much more
'Cause trying not to love you
Oh, yeah, trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more

ehem.

makcik,saya mintak maaf banyak-banyak sebab suka kat anak makcik.dah 4 tahun tapi anak makcik lembab mengalahkan acatina fulica,tetap tak dapat pick up.nak kata dia moron,tak sebab dia budak bakal *teeett*,tapi kenapa dia tak faham-faham?ke sebab dia faham tapi saja buat tak faham.macam mana eh makcik nak bagi dia faham?=.=.