assalamualaikum semua!
aku baru habiskan pembacaan.aku baca apa?novel cinta yang teramatlah cliche.dan daripada kedua-dua novel yang aku baca,aku dapat buat kesimpulan yang..kalau kau bercinta lama mana pun,kalau memang dah takde jodoh antara kau dan si dia,memang last2 kau akan kahwin dengan orang lain jugak.
novel 1:
si dara bercinta dengan si uda ni.dekat tiga tahun jugalah mereka menyulam kasih.si uda ni berjaya ubah si dara yang dulunya sosial,jadi seorang muslimah yang betul-betul muslimah.mereka tu dah merancang nak kahwin bila si uda ni balik malaysia.apa yang si dara tak tahu,si uda B diam-diam ambil hati mak dan ayah si dara,menyebabkan ayah si dara ni dah berkenan sangat dengan si uda B,a.k.a calon menantu pertama.adalah satu peristiwa yang membuatkan si uda patah hati,dan terus kahwin dengan perempuan lain.in the end,si dara yang kononnya lari masa malam pertama sebab dia memang tak setuju nak kahwin dengan si uda B,ni terima si B ni as dia punya jodoh.
novel 2:
si dara dan mr A ni berkenalan dekat gim.diorang bercinta,dan dalam diam mr B ni,a.k.a bos si dara ni menaruh hati kat si dara sejak dari zaman sekolah,tapi cara dia menunjukkan rasa suka dia tu agak lain bgi aku.dia suka cari gaduh dengan si dara,senang cerita,perang mulut .tapi yang bestnya,emak mr B ni sangat2 berkenan dengan si dara,so dia buat plan on her own.tapi si dara ni tetap layan mak mr B ni dengan baik,kiranya dia respek la.dan disebabkan nenek mr A ni masuk campur dalam hal jodoh mr A,si dara ni undur diri sebab bagi dia,dia taknak mr A ni derhaka kepada family sendiri disebabkan dia.dan endingnya?dia dengan mr B.memang si dara ni minat dengan mr B sejak dari sekolah menengah tapi mr B baru sedar yang dia suka si dara bila si dara ni kerja bawah satu bumbung dengan dia.
konklusinya ,kau bercinta lah bagai nak rak mana pun dengan pasangan kau tu,tapi kalau memang dah takda jodoh,kau kena terima.ye,memang susah nak terima tapi kau kena terima jugak.paksa diri kau tu.dalam hal ni,takde siapa pun salah.baik nenek mr A,ataupun si uda.dan sekarang ni,aku tak meletakkan syarat dalam memilih.okay kidding.
ada satu je syarat iaitu,
LELAKI TU MESTILAH SEORANG JURUTERA(baca:ENGINEER)
tak kisah la bahagian mechy ke,electrical ke,software ke,apa2 ajelah field of engineering,asalkan engineer.
:)
Tuesday, November 05, 2013
[13 JAM A380]
okay,bagi aku lepaskan perasaan geram sekejap
sekarang aku tengah baca novel 13 jam a380-evelyn rose
can i say,ni la ending paling aku tak suka sekali?senang cerita,aku rasa nak tukar je ending dia ikut acuan aku sendiri.
11 tahun aku dah bergelumang dalam dunia pembacaan novel melayu ni
dan setakat ni,novel yang aku baca semuanya happy ending.
dan ini,first time ending dia unexpected,yang membuatkan aku tertanya tanya,kenapa ending dia mesti macam ni?kenapa?
okay,ada 3 watak utama.hana,haydar dengan fawwaz.
ceritanya,masa dalam penerbangan ke london,hana ni secara kebetulannya duduk sebelah haydar.
dan selama 13 jam tu,they fall in love.dan hana jadi girlfriend haydar selama 4 jam (hana ni sosial,dan freehair).
sampai kat london tu,dia kenal dengan fawwaz(atas sebab2 tertentu,dia jaga anak angkat fawwaz yang namanya emmel,dan she was staying with fawwaz's family sepanjang 3 tahun ambik phD kat UK tu..)
dan macam biasalah,these 2 people fell for each other,and takdelah cinta yang macam teenagers these days yang beria2 tu..sebab fawwaz ni kira macam org banyak ilmu la..dia la yang dekatkan hana dengan islam,kiranya banyak tolong hana.
they were planning to get married tapi ayah hana tak setuju,dia suruh hana pilih-pHD or getting married?
then ada la few things that turns the tables yang menyebkan hana terpaksa terima haydar jadi suami dia.
ah yang nak tahu sangat tu,baca sendiri lah novel dia! aku still geram sebab hana end up dengan haydar,bukan fawwaz.geram gila tahu?
sekarang aku tengah baca novel 13 jam a380-evelyn rose
can i say,ni la ending paling aku tak suka sekali?senang cerita,aku rasa nak tukar je ending dia ikut acuan aku sendiri.
11 tahun aku dah bergelumang dalam dunia pembacaan novel melayu ni
dan setakat ni,novel yang aku baca semuanya happy ending.
dan ini,first time ending dia unexpected,yang membuatkan aku tertanya tanya,kenapa ending dia mesti macam ni?kenapa?
okay,ada 3 watak utama.hana,haydar dengan fawwaz.
ceritanya,masa dalam penerbangan ke london,hana ni secara kebetulannya duduk sebelah haydar.
dan selama 13 jam tu,they fall in love.dan hana jadi girlfriend haydar selama 4 jam (hana ni sosial,dan freehair).
sampai kat london tu,dia kenal dengan fawwaz(atas sebab2 tertentu,dia jaga anak angkat fawwaz yang namanya emmel,dan she was staying with fawwaz's family sepanjang 3 tahun ambik phD kat UK tu..)
dan macam biasalah,these 2 people fell for each other,and takdelah cinta yang macam teenagers these days yang beria2 tu..sebab fawwaz ni kira macam org banyak ilmu la..dia la yang dekatkan hana dengan islam,kiranya banyak tolong hana.
they were planning to get married tapi ayah hana tak setuju,dia suruh hana pilih-pHD or getting married?
then ada la few things that turns the tables yang menyebkan hana terpaksa terima haydar jadi suami dia.
ah yang nak tahu sangat tu,baca sendiri lah novel dia! aku still geram sebab hana end up dengan haydar,bukan fawwaz.geram gila tahu?
Saturday, October 26, 2013
tunang.
hi.and assalamualaikum
aku sedih ni,sedih.
dengar cerita,kawan aku si fatin tu dah nak bertunang.
memang aku ucap congrats but still no suprise for me.
sekarang perkara tu dah jadi standard.
yang kahwin muda tu ramai,alhamdulillah la kan,elak maksiat kata mereka.
dan bestfriend aku si saadah tu pun dah ditanda.shuib dah bagi cincin.
aku sedih
aku selalu terfikir,memang lepas aku broke up,dah takde orang nak dekat aku ke?
ye,setiap kali aku kenal dengan kawan2 lelaki yang baru,
diorang akan cakap
"kau ni dahla ganas,garang pulak tu!"
aku ganas,dan garang.sebab aku sembunyikan kelembutan dan feminisme aku.
bagi aku,kelembutan aku tu akan keluar bila aku dengan hubby aku nanti.
by hubby,aku maksudkan suami,lelaki aku,-tapi aku taktau siapa dia,or kat mana dia sekarang,adakan kami memang dah kenal lama or etc.dan yang penting,dia halal di sisiku dari konteks keagamaan.
aku takde masa nak lembut2 dengan kawan2 lelaki yang biasa.
aku sedih,sedih sebab,aku takut takde orang nak,sampai grad.
ya allah-di mana jua jodohku berada,dan siapa pun dia,lindungilah dia.tetapkanlah hatinya kepadaku.amin.
aku sedih ni,sedih.
dengar cerita,kawan aku si fatin tu dah nak bertunang.
memang aku ucap congrats but still no suprise for me.
sekarang perkara tu dah jadi standard.
yang kahwin muda tu ramai,alhamdulillah la kan,elak maksiat kata mereka.
dan bestfriend aku si saadah tu pun dah ditanda.shuib dah bagi cincin.
aku sedih
aku selalu terfikir,memang lepas aku broke up,dah takde orang nak dekat aku ke?
ye,setiap kali aku kenal dengan kawan2 lelaki yang baru,
diorang akan cakap
"kau ni dahla ganas,garang pulak tu!"
aku ganas,dan garang.sebab aku sembunyikan kelembutan dan feminisme aku.
bagi aku,kelembutan aku tu akan keluar bila aku dengan hubby aku nanti.
by hubby,aku maksudkan suami,lelaki aku,-tapi aku taktau siapa dia,or kat mana dia sekarang,adakan kami memang dah kenal lama or etc.dan yang penting,dia halal di sisiku dari konteks keagamaan.
aku takde masa nak lembut2 dengan kawan2 lelaki yang biasa.
aku sedih,sedih sebab,aku takut takde orang nak,sampai grad.
ya allah-di mana jua jodohku berada,dan siapa pun dia,lindungilah dia.tetapkanlah hatinya kepadaku.amin.
Friday, August 02, 2013
KESEDARAN YANG LAMBAT
"dia sayang gila dekat kau,"
"berapa peratus?"
"99 something kot."
"hmm ruginya aku."
aku mengeluh.sumpah aku tak tahu yang sayangnya dia pada aku banyak macam tu.
"tapi lepas broke up,tinggal 51%"
ujar k(bukan nama sebenar),dia tenang saja menentang pandanganku.
dalam hati aku,terfikir,macam mana boleh timbul soal sayang berapa percent ni?tapi aku tak meluahkan.
"aku pernah tanya dia..sebab waktu kau broke up dengan dia tu,aku dengan dia.."
terus kupandang k,dan nyata,dia tenang saja memandangku.
"apa?nak isi kekosongan lah ye?"
balasku sinis.dasar lelaki,tinggal sekejap terus cari lain.begitulah conclusionku.
k ketawa.
"ha'ah tapi sumpah,takde ape2 pun dengan dia..aku pernah keluar dengan dia waktu korang broke up tu.."
ok,kalau yang ni,aku memang terkejut.sangkaanku meleset sama sekali.aku fikir,akulah satu2 nya perempuan yang pernah keluar dgn f.sebab prinsip aku waktu tu,lelaki pertama yang keluar date denganku pasti akan menjadi suamiku(waktu tu jelah,sekarang tak dah).tapi aku salah.sebelum tu,f pernah keluar dengan k.ya,dan sungguh,aku tak tahu! bebal aku setebal novel i love you stupid agaknya waktu tu.
"tapi lepas tu,pagi tu,dia mesej aku 'selamat pagi honey'.bila aku tanya kenapa,dia cakap ayah dia panggil mak dia honey,"
aku diam.cuba mengawal emosi.sepanjang dua tahun aku dengan f bersama,tak pernah sekalipun dia memanggilku 'honey' kalau bukan aku yang memaksa .panggilan2 manja yang meloyakan tekak tu,semua diatur olehku.dia tak pernah berusaha pun.tapi dengan k,kenapa begitu mudah dia melafazkan?kesunyian sebab takde aku?tak,tu alasan paling bodoh atas muka bumi ni.
"satu lagi,dia pernah cakap,yang aku ni 'soulmate' dia,"
k menyambung,sebab dia tengok aku ketawa tadi barangkali.padahal perasaan aku serapuh biskut marie.perasaanku macam naik roller coaster yang berpusing2 laju tu.tapi aku tetap ketawa.ketawa plastik.
"aku bukak kamus,sebab waktu tu aku tak faham apa maksud soulmate tu,"
kali ni aku ketawa.dan aku tersedar sesuatu.
dia sayang aku,dalam masa yang sama,hatinya diberikan kepada k.
apa yang aku tahu tentang dia,semua k tahu.
bodohnya aku.bodohnya sebab lambat tersedar.mungkin mereka hampir2 berkongsi perasaan yang serupa tetapi disebabkan kami menyambung balik hubungan yang terputus,mereka tak sempat .
kenapa aku lambat sedar?sebab sayang yang aku sanjung sangatkah?bodoh.
aku pernah warning dia,jangan mesej dengan mana2 perempuan di belakang,atau di hadapanku,sebab aku tak boleh terima.
dia mengiyakan.
dan aku percaya.
tetapi aku ketawa,sebab sebenarnya aku ada juga mesej lelaki lain.tapi sekadar kawan.
waktu tu,aku tahu,itu mungkin karma untuk f sebab hubungan rahsia dia dengan k dulu.berbalas.1-1.ting tong.
aku tak menyesal sebab masih rapat dengan domino walaupun aku dengan dia.
baru aku sedar,yang kawan seratus kali ganda berharga daripada boyfriend yang kononnya cinta mati tu.huh.
aku sedar,kasih dia dibahagi dua.aku sedar,apa yang dia buat pada k,tidak dibuat pada aku.
orang akan cakap,
"alah setakat panggilan2 macam tu,apa nak kecoh ?"
aku perempuan,dan aku tahu betapa berharganya panggilan macam tu daripada lelaki kepada seorang perempuan yang dia sayang.
sebenarnya,aku kehilangan dia,lama dulu.
hati dia mungkin dah lama pada k tapi aku yang menghalang.
mungkin ceritanya patut macam tu.
yang aku adalah laluan yang membolehkan dua manusia ni saling mengenali hati budi masing masing.
aku baru tersedar dari angananku yang panjang.
"berapa peratus?"
"99 something kot."
"hmm ruginya aku."
aku mengeluh.sumpah aku tak tahu yang sayangnya dia pada aku banyak macam tu.
"tapi lepas broke up,tinggal 51%"
ujar k(bukan nama sebenar),dia tenang saja menentang pandanganku.
dalam hati aku,terfikir,macam mana boleh timbul soal sayang berapa percent ni?tapi aku tak meluahkan.
"aku pernah tanya dia..sebab waktu kau broke up dengan dia tu,aku dengan dia.."
terus kupandang k,dan nyata,dia tenang saja memandangku.
"apa?nak isi kekosongan lah ye?"
balasku sinis.dasar lelaki,tinggal sekejap terus cari lain.begitulah conclusionku.
k ketawa.
"ha'ah tapi sumpah,takde ape2 pun dengan dia..aku pernah keluar dengan dia waktu korang broke up tu.."
ok,kalau yang ni,aku memang terkejut.sangkaanku meleset sama sekali.aku fikir,akulah satu2 nya perempuan yang pernah keluar dgn f.sebab prinsip aku waktu tu,lelaki pertama yang keluar date denganku pasti akan menjadi suamiku(waktu tu jelah,sekarang tak dah).tapi aku salah.sebelum tu,f pernah keluar dengan k.ya,dan sungguh,aku tak tahu! bebal aku setebal novel i love you stupid agaknya waktu tu.
"tapi lepas tu,pagi tu,dia mesej aku 'selamat pagi honey'.bila aku tanya kenapa,dia cakap ayah dia panggil mak dia honey,"
aku diam.cuba mengawal emosi.sepanjang dua tahun aku dengan f bersama,tak pernah sekalipun dia memanggilku 'honey' kalau bukan aku yang memaksa .panggilan2 manja yang meloyakan tekak tu,semua diatur olehku.dia tak pernah berusaha pun.tapi dengan k,kenapa begitu mudah dia melafazkan?kesunyian sebab takde aku?tak,tu alasan paling bodoh atas muka bumi ni.
"satu lagi,dia pernah cakap,yang aku ni 'soulmate' dia,"
k menyambung,sebab dia tengok aku ketawa tadi barangkali.padahal perasaan aku serapuh biskut marie.perasaanku macam naik roller coaster yang berpusing2 laju tu.tapi aku tetap ketawa.ketawa plastik.
"aku bukak kamus,sebab waktu tu aku tak faham apa maksud soulmate tu,"
kali ni aku ketawa.dan aku tersedar sesuatu.
dia sayang aku,dalam masa yang sama,hatinya diberikan kepada k.
apa yang aku tahu tentang dia,semua k tahu.
bodohnya aku.bodohnya sebab lambat tersedar.mungkin mereka hampir2 berkongsi perasaan yang serupa tetapi disebabkan kami menyambung balik hubungan yang terputus,mereka tak sempat .
kenapa aku lambat sedar?sebab sayang yang aku sanjung sangatkah?bodoh.
aku pernah warning dia,jangan mesej dengan mana2 perempuan di belakang,atau di hadapanku,sebab aku tak boleh terima.
dia mengiyakan.
dan aku percaya.
tetapi aku ketawa,sebab sebenarnya aku ada juga mesej lelaki lain.tapi sekadar kawan.
waktu tu,aku tahu,itu mungkin karma untuk f sebab hubungan rahsia dia dengan k dulu.berbalas.1-1.ting tong.
aku tak menyesal sebab masih rapat dengan domino walaupun aku dengan dia.
baru aku sedar,yang kawan seratus kali ganda berharga daripada boyfriend yang kononnya cinta mati tu.huh.
aku sedar,kasih dia dibahagi dua.aku sedar,apa yang dia buat pada k,tidak dibuat pada aku.
orang akan cakap,
"alah setakat panggilan2 macam tu,apa nak kecoh ?"
aku perempuan,dan aku tahu betapa berharganya panggilan macam tu daripada lelaki kepada seorang perempuan yang dia sayang.
sebenarnya,aku kehilangan dia,lama dulu.
hati dia mungkin dah lama pada k tapi aku yang menghalang.
mungkin ceritanya patut macam tu.
yang aku adalah laluan yang membolehkan dua manusia ni saling mengenali hati budi masing masing.
aku baru tersedar dari angananku yang panjang.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Y O U.
I went out.to ecm.with my close friend,kat.we dressed femininely,and the second time I wore skirt when I was with my friends.
and we wandered in parkson,looking for some handbags for our raya.when suddenly I spotted someone.someone that I used to know.
it felt like my world gonna crumble apart,because the one I saw was my other half. I mean my ex-other half.
both of us avoided him,so we used another shortcut to reach the cinemas.and I asked kat,why did she avoided him,because she apparently have no reasons to do so.
and she said that it was for me.she didn't want me to get hurt.or him to get hurt.thanks,pal.
when I spotted him,i was flabergastered.he haven't change at all.tall,and still I miss his sweet smile.and i'm surprised that my heart beats rapidly,thumping here and there,and of course I still have the remain feeling for him.i wasn't able to give my heart like I gave him to others.
and I am happy because he seems to live happily,even without me.
may jodoh and fate will connect us together again,just like an old time.amin.
that was the side story.
we went to watch pacific rim.though it was a bit pricey,but it's worth the ringgit.(it was actually like gorillas but much more in a modern versions).I love the characters,especially the jaeger.(jaeger in Germany means the hunter).This jaegers was piloted by skillfull pilots known as ranger.one jaeger need two pilots or else it can't be moved.here,it uses the application of cognitive and neurological science to allow the jaeger to be used in wars with the kaijus.(giant beast).
I don't wanna be a spoiler so you should watch it for yourself.i was screaming in excitement everytime the jaegers fought the kaijus.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pacific_Rim_(film) (source)
and we wandered in parkson,looking for some handbags for our raya.when suddenly I spotted someone.someone that I used to know.
it felt like my world gonna crumble apart,because the one I saw was my other half. I mean my ex-other half.
both of us avoided him,so we used another shortcut to reach the cinemas.and I asked kat,why did she avoided him,because she apparently have no reasons to do so.
and she said that it was for me.she didn't want me to get hurt.or him to get hurt.thanks,pal.
when I spotted him,i was flabergastered.he haven't change at all.tall,and still I miss his sweet smile.and i'm surprised that my heart beats rapidly,thumping here and there,and of course I still have the remain feeling for him.i wasn't able to give my heart like I gave him to others.
and I am happy because he seems to live happily,even without me.
may jodoh and fate will connect us together again,just like an old time.amin.
that was the side story.
we went to watch pacific rim.though it was a bit pricey,but it's worth the ringgit.(it was actually like gorillas but much more in a modern versions).I love the characters,especially the jaeger.(jaeger in Germany means the hunter).This jaegers was piloted by skillfull pilots known as ranger.one jaeger need two pilots or else it can't be moved.here,it uses the application of cognitive and neurological science to allow the jaeger to be used in wars with the kaijus.(giant beast).
I don't wanna be a spoiler so you should watch it for yourself.i was screaming in excitement everytime the jaegers fought the kaijus.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pacific_Rim_(film) (source)
Monday, July 15, 2013
keputusan.
assalamualaikum reader(s),
ni nak habaq mai sikit
aku tengah penasaran plus dilema plus keliru plus pening.
dapat offers to both RU,USM dgn UTM
alhamdulillah unexpected rezeki.
tapi masalah pulak timbul lepas tu.
aku tak boleh nak buat keputusan dengan tepat.
samada nak pi penang,tempat abah aku belajar dulu,
ataupun skudai,johor yang aku sayangi sejak zaman matrik
course?sama tapi tak serupa
aku keliru dengan cita cita sendiri
sebab aku ni jenis cepat pasionnate dan akan jadi sudden-genius kalau dah obses sangat dengan satu2 benda tu
dekat penang tu,dapat course yang dah lama diidamkan
dekat skudai pulak,lebih kurang jelah
kalau pilih penang,skop kerjaya sempit la sikit kan?
tapi oklah dari takde kerja langsung
boleh la jadi cikgu ke,researcher ke,
kalau skudai pulak,
boleh kerja kilang,jadi cikgu,researcher
hmm mana satu ye?dua dua aku tak kisah.
sebab takut jugak dengar cerita kawan,dekat u semua benda jadi tough
dan ketakutan kedua,dengan subjek maths.
tapi yelah kan,kalau usaha,mesti boleh punya
sebab aku rasa aku ni takdelah bodoh mana pun maths tu.
cuma malas je.memang kalau jadi budak fbme ni kena rajin la.
tapi rasa macam hati tu berat kat skudai je,
in sha allah keputusan akan dibuat nanti.
hah lupa nak tanya mr domino
biasanya dia punya opinion memang aku setuju walaupun ayat2 dia pedas macam tergigit lada jarum
tapi tulah,orang sibuk praktikal,segan nak kacau.
eh mana dia ye?dia memang taknak bagi opinion ke macam mana?nak mesej kredit sikit.nak skype lagilah malas.
ahh nanti2 la aku mesej.tunggu dia tak busy.
ni nak habaq mai sikit
aku tengah penasaran plus dilema plus keliru plus pening.
dapat offers to both RU,USM dgn UTM
alhamdulillah unexpected rezeki.
tapi masalah pulak timbul lepas tu.
aku tak boleh nak buat keputusan dengan tepat.
samada nak pi penang,tempat abah aku belajar dulu,
ataupun skudai,johor yang aku sayangi sejak zaman matrik
course?sama tapi tak serupa
aku keliru dengan cita cita sendiri
sebab aku ni jenis cepat pasionnate dan akan jadi sudden-genius kalau dah obses sangat dengan satu2 benda tu
dekat penang tu,dapat course yang dah lama diidamkan
dekat skudai pulak,lebih kurang jelah
kalau pilih penang,skop kerjaya sempit la sikit kan?
tapi oklah dari takde kerja langsung
boleh la jadi cikgu ke,researcher ke,
kalau skudai pulak,
boleh kerja kilang,jadi cikgu,researcher
hmm mana satu ye?dua dua aku tak kisah.
sebab takut jugak dengar cerita kawan,dekat u semua benda jadi tough
dan ketakutan kedua,dengan subjek maths.
tapi yelah kan,kalau usaha,mesti boleh punya
sebab aku rasa aku ni takdelah bodoh mana pun maths tu.
cuma malas je.memang kalau jadi budak fbme ni kena rajin la.
tapi rasa macam hati tu berat kat skudai je,
in sha allah keputusan akan dibuat nanti.
hah lupa nak tanya mr domino
biasanya dia punya opinion memang aku setuju walaupun ayat2 dia pedas macam tergigit lada jarum
tapi tulah,orang sibuk praktikal,segan nak kacau.
eh mana dia ye?dia memang taknak bagi opinion ke macam mana?nak mesej kredit sikit.nak skype lagilah malas.
ahh nanti2 la aku mesej.tunggu dia tak busy.
Friday, June 28, 2013
truth to be told.
hi.and assalamualaikum
today i went to cinema with my girls.(sorry ayat macam nak start karangan,it was so awkward).we watched pee mak.and told ya,that was the funniest thai movie.we went with exora,because it has enough seat for us.as usual we were chatting about girls' stuffs and suddenly they talked about the sensitive topic-my ex.yes,my motokare.almost everyone in the car sighed when fend's name being blurted out by kat.they were disgaree with me,saying that i should not remember him anymore as it has been two years since we broken up.i;m going to defend it,but again,i failed.it's not because too many of them disagree with me,but it's my heart.my heart tells me not to quit.my intuition tells me to believe in jodoh.and qada' and qadar.i'm practicing it a long time before but when being condemned by the girls,my confidence seems to fade away.and when u bring up why kat and wan can still take a picture together although they were lover,they believe i'm jealous.hell yeah,who wouldn't engulf in jealousy right?why can't fend and me being like that?does he hate me that much?yes people change..but that one person i'd always cherished whatever the situation is him.the only one.shall i call him my jodoh?my other half?my baby-boo?oh whatever.and and i selalu berangan,if i'm still with him,i'm going to cook his favourite dishes,then hantar ke rumah dia.i'm going to do anything.and when kat said he loves someone's else smile,my heart hurts..a lot.yes because i just realized i actually treasures him very much .but it's too late.too late to do anything.but i'm still going to believe my intuition.gonna do some istikharah.mintak dengan ALLAH.in sha allah kalau memang jodoh akan dapat balik dia tu.biar dia degil mana pun.biar hati dia taknak pun.ya allah aku yakin pada perancanganMU.amin.
today i went to cinema with my girls.(sorry ayat macam nak start karangan,it was so awkward).we watched pee mak.and told ya,that was the funniest thai movie.we went with exora,because it has enough seat for us.as usual we were chatting about girls' stuffs and suddenly they talked about the sensitive topic-my ex.yes,my motokare.almost everyone in the car sighed when fend's name being blurted out by kat.they were disgaree with me,saying that i should not remember him anymore as it has been two years since we broken up.i;m going to defend it,but again,i failed.it's not because too many of them disagree with me,but it's my heart.my heart tells me not to quit.my intuition tells me to believe in jodoh.and qada' and qadar.i'm practicing it a long time before but when being condemned by the girls,my confidence seems to fade away.and when u bring up why kat and wan can still take a picture together although they were lover,they believe i'm jealous.hell yeah,who wouldn't engulf in jealousy right?why can't fend and me being like that?does he hate me that much?yes people change..but that one person i'd always cherished whatever the situation is him.the only one.shall i call him my jodoh?my other half?my baby-boo?oh whatever.and and i selalu berangan,if i'm still with him,i'm going to cook his favourite dishes,then hantar ke rumah dia.i'm going to do anything.and when kat said he loves someone's else smile,my heart hurts..a lot.yes because i just realized i actually treasures him very much .but it's too late.too late to do anything.but i'm still going to believe my intuition.gonna do some istikharah.mintak dengan ALLAH.in sha allah kalau memang jodoh akan dapat balik dia tu.biar dia degil mana pun.biar hati dia taknak pun.ya allah aku yakin pada perancanganMU.amin.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
being condemned.
asssalamualaikum.and hi :)
seriously aku tak suka nak compare someone dengan someone.contohnya Encik A dan Encik B.
Em contohnya la,Encik A tu ex-boy aku.dia tak kisah dengan apa yang aku buat.aku nak minat kpop ke,apa ke,dia tetap sokong.dia takkan cakap,"awak,janganlah minat kpop.entah apa-apa.dahla laki-laki kpop tu macam gay.lepas tu buat kiyomi pulak.baik awak tengok saya buat kiyomi,lagi comel,"aku respect dia sebab dia tak cakap macam tu.tapi tu cerita lama so biar jelah.
encik B ni pulak,orangnya baik sikit.so aku fahamlah kalau dia tak minat kpop..aku tak kisah.kalau tak minat sudah.kalau kau dengan aku/sayang aku,tak semestinya kau kena suka apa yang aku suka.aku tak paksa.lagipun perempuan2 kpop ni seksi tahap tak ingat.pakai lingerie saja pun ada.pakai mini skirt pun standard depa lah tu.aku pun taknak tambah dosa kau.tapi kalau kau mempersoalkan aku kenapa aku minat kpop,tu aku berangin.aku punya sukalah nak minat apa pun.lagipun kalau aku minat kpop/western,perasaan aku dekat dia sama je,so,takde masalah kat situ pun.yang saja nak buat masalah tu buat apa?so please,if you like me,respect me whatever that up to my liking.never questions it again.okay?aku tak suka nak marah sebab bila manusia marah,setan duduk bersorak riang.
seriously aku tak suka nak compare someone dengan someone.contohnya Encik A dan Encik B.
Em contohnya la,Encik A tu ex-boy aku.dia tak kisah dengan apa yang aku buat.aku nak minat kpop ke,apa ke,dia tetap sokong.dia takkan cakap,"awak,janganlah minat kpop.entah apa-apa.dahla laki-laki kpop tu macam gay.lepas tu buat kiyomi pulak.baik awak tengok saya buat kiyomi,lagi comel,"aku respect dia sebab dia tak cakap macam tu.tapi tu cerita lama so biar jelah.
encik B ni pulak,orangnya baik sikit.so aku fahamlah kalau dia tak minat kpop..aku tak kisah.kalau tak minat sudah.kalau kau dengan aku/sayang aku,tak semestinya kau kena suka apa yang aku suka.aku tak paksa.lagipun perempuan2 kpop ni seksi tahap tak ingat.pakai lingerie saja pun ada.pakai mini skirt pun standard depa lah tu.aku pun taknak tambah dosa kau.tapi kalau kau mempersoalkan aku kenapa aku minat kpop,tu aku berangin.aku punya sukalah nak minat apa pun.lagipun kalau aku minat kpop/western,perasaan aku dekat dia sama je,so,takde masalah kat situ pun.yang saja nak buat masalah tu buat apa?so please,if you like me,respect me whatever that up to my liking.never questions it again.okay?aku tak suka nak marah sebab bila manusia marah,setan duduk bersorak riang.
Tuesday, May 07, 2013
nuget kicap
assalamualaikum semuaaa. :D
sempena jadi surirumah untuk beberapa bulan nih,
aku ingat nak teruskan menulis nuget dan kicap.
sebab sekarang pun dah chapter 38.
watak utamanya dah berbaik-baik.ala,sweet gitu :D
tapi aku perlukan idea,
so siapa2 yang ada idea best boleh la komen ye:)
sempena jadi surirumah untuk beberapa bulan nih,
aku ingat nak teruskan menulis nuget dan kicap.
sebab sekarang pun dah chapter 38.
watak utamanya dah berbaik-baik.ala,sweet gitu :D
tapi aku perlukan idea,
so siapa2 yang ada idea best boleh la komen ye:)
Saturday, February 09, 2013
sejujur hatimu.
assalamualaikum.
nina's back with cheesy and greasy post!:)
this morning,i'm going to pour everything out.
it's not like i haven't done this before,coz it was countless time i did it.
first,yes everyone still put the blame on me,even after 2 years.
i have to admit that they have many points to blame me.
i accepted that.
as it was all my fault.
last two weeks ago,i were scolded by both kat and fazira,(both are my close friends,and i know they care for me,ALOT)
why?
coz i still tweeted about my past love,past experiences and how i miss my ex.
they labelled me as "meroyan"
like,"dahdahla tu meroyan,buat2 la cari yang baru"
i ignored them.
coz it's too hard to do that*wiping tears*
yes,i still love him.period.
secondly,my world revolving around me isn't a kind one either.
epsecially when running man is on air,
coz we all well informed that yong hwa is 'lika-a-family' to running man cast right?
so that's the thing suffocated me the most is,
whenever i was looking at yong hwa,i'll remember him.it's an involuntary reaction.
by now,i can't barely listen or watch CN BLUE,SNSD AND SUJU's songs and mvs.
and then,num 27.
november 27 is his birthday,
the date i could never forget.
number 27 is everywhere.
seriously give me a break,world.
third one is,
the consequences of teaching my ex to like kpop,like me do.
"hahaha padan muka hang nina,you're busted!"-yes i knew it so please don't repeat these word.
that was one of the biggest mistake ever.
now i have to like,choose the kpop groups that are unaffected from our broken relationship,and listen to it with peace.
the problem is,almost none.
and one shouldnt have share everything with her bf,
considering that we don't know whether he end up as our hubby or not.
so be prepared girls.
so the conclusion is,i'll be okay after writing this post.
as i said before
,i personally,and crazily,and madly believes that,
our jodoh between us is still strong.amin.
nina's back with cheesy and greasy post!:)
this morning,i'm going to pour everything out.
it's not like i haven't done this before,coz it was countless time i did it.
first,yes everyone still put the blame on me,even after 2 years.
i have to admit that they have many points to blame me.
i accepted that.
as it was all my fault.
last two weeks ago,i were scolded by both kat and fazira,(both are my close friends,and i know they care for me,ALOT)
why?
coz i still tweeted about my past love,past experiences and how i miss my ex.
they labelled me as "meroyan"
like,"dahdahla tu meroyan,buat2 la cari yang baru"
i ignored them.
coz it's too hard to do that*wiping tears*
yes,i still love him.period.
secondly,my world revolving around me isn't a kind one either.
epsecially when running man is on air,
coz we all well informed that yong hwa is 'lika-a-family' to running man cast right?
so that's the thing suffocated me the most is,
whenever i was looking at yong hwa,i'll remember him.it's an involuntary reaction.
by now,i can't barely listen or watch CN BLUE,SNSD AND SUJU's songs and mvs.
and then,num 27.
november 27 is his birthday,
the date i could never forget.
number 27 is everywhere.
seriously give me a break,world.
third one is,
the consequences of teaching my ex to like kpop,like me do.
"hahaha padan muka hang nina,you're busted!"-yes i knew it so please don't repeat these word.
that was one of the biggest mistake ever.
now i have to like,choose the kpop groups that are unaffected from our broken relationship,and listen to it with peace.
the problem is,almost none.
and one shouldnt have share everything with her bf,
considering that we don't know whether he end up as our hubby or not.
so be prepared girls.
so the conclusion is,i'll be okay after writing this post.
as i said before
,i personally,and crazily,and madly believes that,
our jodoh between us is still strong.amin.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I've met your mother.
assalamualaikum peeps,
i don't know why,dua tiga hari ni macam meroyan sikit,
mungkin sebab environment gua yang entah pape kot,full of lovebirds bagai,
tu yang sakit kepala sikit.
oh ye,i was a bit confused about something.
there's one guy,he's my close friend but not too close,since he already have a girlfriend.
ya he's a flirt,dengan gua lagilah.
since we did everything as a group.
with me,dia macam lain sikit,
i don't know whether he develop a real feeling for me or not(of course i don't know,there's no way i'll ask him although i am badly want a clarification)
he's funny ,bright and ridiculous..sebijik macam my ex.
and that..that's why i think i've fallen for him.(just a temporary feeling,believe me)
ya,it's forbidden since dia dah berpunya..
tapi i'll try halting this feeling from growing larger..
ya,he's humorous,
semalam he said to me that he wanted to take me home and meet with his father.(kalau mr domino yang cakap,i would agree right away)
i was like..wtf with this guy?
there's always a limit to a joke,kan?
gua tak suka dia gurau macam ni.
hati gua fragile.bak kata amy,senipis kulit bawang.
gua takut ayat dia tu sebab..
once upon a time,there was a really lovely and sweet high school couple
they've promised to each other they would get married
and etc..
the boy have met his to be in-laws,and the same thing went to that girl,
since then,they were convinced that they'll marry each other
the whole school knew they' had fell head over heel for each other
they even planned their future
they were dubbed as 'comedy couple'
but allah's perancangan,who are they to deny it
they broke up.
that was the most shocking news to the people around them
they can't accept that.
but till now..although it has been two years,
the girl still believe that there's a still jodoh between them.
and she believe if allah already wrote the guy as her husband,
they'll get back together,
amin.
so to my friend tu,please don't main-main about meeting with your parents etc
i don't like it.
if you really likes me,why not just confess?
and please don't play with your gf's feeling,
she'll hurt a lot if she knew you called me with cheesy words,
the words are supposedly mean for her,not me
you've mistaken me with your gf.
please wake up man!
i don't know why,dua tiga hari ni macam meroyan sikit,
mungkin sebab environment gua yang entah pape kot,full of lovebirds bagai,
tu yang sakit kepala sikit.
oh ye,i was a bit confused about something.
there's one guy,he's my close friend but not too close,since he already have a girlfriend.
ya he's a flirt,dengan gua lagilah.
since we did everything as a group.
with me,dia macam lain sikit,
i don't know whether he develop a real feeling for me or not(of course i don't know,there's no way i'll ask him although i am badly want a clarification)
he's funny ,bright and ridiculous..sebijik macam my ex.
and that..that's why i think i've fallen for him.(just a temporary feeling,believe me)
ya,it's forbidden since dia dah berpunya..
tapi i'll try halting this feeling from growing larger..
ya,he's humorous,
semalam he said to me that he wanted to take me home and meet with his father.(kalau mr domino yang cakap,i would agree right away)
i was like..wtf with this guy?
there's always a limit to a joke,kan?
gua tak suka dia gurau macam ni.
hati gua fragile.bak kata amy,senipis kulit bawang.
gua takut ayat dia tu sebab..
once upon a time,there was a really lovely and sweet high school couple
they've promised to each other they would get married
and etc..
the boy have met his to be in-laws,and the same thing went to that girl,
since then,they were convinced that they'll marry each other
the whole school knew they' had fell head over heel for each other
they even planned their future
they were dubbed as 'comedy couple'
but allah's perancangan,who are they to deny it
they broke up.
that was the most shocking news to the people around them
they can't accept that.
but till now..although it has been two years,
the girl still believe that there's a still jodoh between them.
and she believe if allah already wrote the guy as her husband,
they'll get back together,
amin.
so to my friend tu,please don't main-main about meeting with your parents etc
i don't like it.
if you really likes me,why not just confess?
and please don't play with your gf's feeling,
she'll hurt a lot if she knew you called me with cheesy words,
the words are supposedly mean for her,not me
you've mistaken me with your gf.
please wake up man!
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
19+1=20
assalamualaikum,
it hasn't been that long since i last updated my blog.
so today i'm going to membebel sikitlah.
>happy new year to all of you,
thank you for reading my post(yeah i sound like a bit pathetic)
so my new year's resolution are:
>the same as last year.
>there's so much thing that i didn't yet to solve it,so my plan is,i'm going to do/solve it this year,
*macam tak percaya tahun ni dah 20,coz i hope i'm forever 19 though!:)*
it hasn't been that long since i last updated my blog.
so today i'm going to membebel sikitlah.
>happy new year to all of you,
thank you for reading my post(yeah i sound like a bit pathetic)
so my new year's resolution are:
>the same as last year.
>there's so much thing that i didn't yet to solve it,so my plan is,i'm going to do/solve it this year,
*macam tak percaya tahun ni dah 20,coz i hope i'm forever 19 though!:)*
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