honestly,i'm not okay.

it's been a year.
since that thing happened..
the day i broke up with  HIM.
we broke up one day after my 18th birthday.
sad,right?
well,it's all my fault.
breaking up with such a nice and witty guy without a solid reason.
i don't hate him,but i don't know if he hated me for what i did or not?
you better not.
i'm not going to brag about how nice he was towards me,how his parents easily accepted me as their son's lover,or how our friends,yes,i repeat,OUR FRIENDS(we share same community cycle coz we were classmate during my senior  year).
oh god.that was just MY FAULT.
Everyone were pointing their fingers at me,saying that it's your fault,bish.
i was doomed.DOOMED.
i felt like i'm a criminal.
after finishing our high school,i thought we can just proceed to the next level.
 i mean,doing things like other couples do,like going on a date or watching movies together,wears couple tee or bickering like the world is ours.
we were envied by everyone,they kept saying things like,'woaa,you're a comedy couple.just like ys,but of course it's malay version,'
i was a proud gf then.
after a year,we seperated.
going to different colleges really put me at ease,
i'm happy coz that mean i won't see him around.
but of course,jealousy strikes me when i witnessed many couples were sooo LOVEYDOVEY,
this isn't good,i thought.but i can't do anything.
so,the  only way ,
i pretend not to see anything.
finally!it's working.
i'm really thankful.
but of course,as a couple,we share same interests.
BOTH ARE GETTING OBSESSED WITH KPOP TALENTOS.
that sounds absurd right?
okay,i admit that that one was my job too.
i lured him into that world.
then the most absurd thing is,he's obsessed with the girl groups.
*mentally slapped my face*
okay fine.i'm fine.plus,i'm proud bcoz we shared same interest and talked about it more than hours,for god sake.never getting bored.we even have nicknames for each other in korean.that explained how much our obssession to kpop.nahh.
okay fullstop.my tears are welling now.pshh.

NOW.
in front of my pals,i pretend that everything is an okay now.
i have forgotten about our past.
i've forgotten everything.
THAT'S  ONE OF BIGGEST LIE I EVER MADE.
i can't forget him,till now.

my heart seemed can't let go of 'her' other half.
dear heart,please let 'your other half' go.
it's not ours anymore.okay?

please heart,let go of him.
and you,
move on!
go and find someone who worth to be with you.












p/s:hahahaha.you guys have been trolled! i was just testing my english level coz i just felt like doing it.i'm damn bored now~! so how's bout my english..it is okay?or not?judge by yourself.i am going to write fanfiction,that's why i wrote this post.tehehe.