sejujur hatimu.

assalamualaikum.
nina's back with cheesy and greasy post!:)
 this morning,i'm going to pour everything out.
it's not like i haven't done this before,coz it was countless time i did it.
first,yes everyone still put the blame on me,even after 2 years.
i have to admit that they have many points to blame me.
i accepted that.
as it was all my fault.
last two weeks ago,i were scolded by both kat and fazira,(both are my close friends,and i know they care for me,ALOT)
why?
coz i still tweeted about my past love,past experiences and how i miss my ex.
they labelled me as "meroyan"
like,"dahdahla tu meroyan,buat2 la cari yang baru"
i ignored them.
coz it's too hard to do that*wiping tears*
yes,i still love him.period.

secondly,my world revolving around me isn't a kind one either.
epsecially when running man is on air,
coz we all well informed that yong hwa is 'lika-a-family' to running man cast right?
so that's the thing suffocated me the most is,
whenever i was looking at yong hwa,i'll remember him.it's an involuntary reaction.
by now,i can't barely listen or watch CN BLUE,SNSD AND SUJU's songs and mvs.
and then,num 27.
november 27 is his birthday,
the date i could never forget.
number 27 is everywhere.
seriously give me a break,world.

third one is,
the consequences of teaching my ex to like kpop,like me do.
"hahaha padan muka hang nina,you're busted!"-yes i knew it so please don't repeat these word.
that was one of the biggest mistake ever.
now i have to like,choose the kpop groups that are unaffected from our broken relationship,and listen to it with peace.
the problem is,almost  none.
and one shouldnt have share everything with her bf,
considering that we don't know whether he end up as our hubby or not.
so be prepared girls.

so the conclusion is,i'll be okay after writing this post.
as i said before
,i personally,and crazily,and madly believes that,
our jodoh between us is still strong.amin.