truth to be told.

hi.and assalamualaikum
today i went to cinema with my girls.(sorry ayat macam nak start karangan,it was so awkward).we watched pee mak.and told ya,that was the funniest thai movie.we went with exora,because it has enough seat for us.as usual we were chatting about girls' stuffs and suddenly they talked about the sensitive topic-my ex.yes,my motokare.almost everyone in the car sighed when fend's name being blurted out by kat.they were disgaree with me,saying that i should not remember him anymore as it has been two years since we broken up.i;m going to defend it,but again,i failed.it's not because too many of them disagree with me,but it's my heart.my heart tells me not to quit.my intuition tells me to believe in jodoh.and qada' and qadar.i'm practicing it a long time before but when being condemned by the girls,my confidence seems to fade away.and when u bring up why kat and wan can still take a picture together although they were lover,they believe i'm jealous.hell yeah,who wouldn't engulf in jealousy right?why can't fend and me being like that?does he hate me that much?yes people change..but that one person  i'd always cherished whatever the situation is him.the only one.shall i call him my jodoh?my other half?my baby-boo?oh whatever.and and i selalu berangan,if i'm still with him,i'm going to cook his favourite dishes,then hantar ke rumah dia.i'm going to do anything.and when kat said he loves someone's else smile,my heart hurts..a lot.yes because i just realized i actually treasures him very much .but it's too late.too late to do anything.but  i'm still going to believe my intuition.gonna do some istikharah.mintak dengan ALLAH.in sha allah kalau memang jodoh akan dapat balik dia tu.biar dia degil mana pun.biar hati dia taknak pun.ya allah aku yakin pada perancanganMU.amin.

being condemned.

asssalamualaikum.and hi :)
 seriously aku tak suka nak compare someone dengan someone.contohnya Encik A dan Encik B.
Em contohnya la,Encik A tu ex-boy aku.dia tak kisah dengan apa yang aku buat.aku nak minat kpop ke,apa ke,dia tetap sokong.dia takkan cakap,"awak,janganlah minat kpop.entah apa-apa.dahla laki-laki kpop tu macam gay.lepas tu buat kiyomi pulak.baik awak tengok saya buat kiyomi,lagi comel,"aku respect dia sebab dia tak cakap macam tu.tapi tu cerita lama so biar jelah.
encik B ni pulak,orangnya baik  sikit.so aku fahamlah kalau dia tak minat kpop..aku tak kisah.kalau tak minat sudah.kalau kau dengan aku/sayang aku,tak semestinya kau kena suka apa yang aku suka.aku tak paksa.lagipun perempuan2 kpop ni seksi tahap tak ingat.pakai lingerie saja pun ada.pakai mini skirt pun standard depa lah tu.aku pun taknak tambah dosa kau.tapi kalau kau mempersoalkan aku kenapa aku minat kpop,tu aku berangin.aku punya sukalah nak minat apa pun.lagipun kalau aku minat kpop/western,perasaan aku dekat dia sama je,so,takde masalah kat situ pun.yang saja nak buat masalah tu buat apa?so please,if you like me,respect me whatever that up to my liking.never questions it again.okay?aku tak suka nak marah sebab bila manusia marah,setan duduk bersorak riang.